Within the last hour, I’ve been struck by the uniqueness of my current situation here; the blessing of it; how much I’m going to miss it. It started as I leaned against the kitchen doorframe, pizza crust in hand, leisurely watching the boisterous game of Monkey in the Middle taking place before me. “Ms Rachel, come play!” called one of the kids. I laughed and shook my head, indicating the unfinished pizza. But for the first time, I realized how much I’m going to miss having a job that lets me play Monkey in the Middle every day with twelve elementary school kids and three of my best friends.
The game didn’t end until the second-to-last kid left. Then Rodrigo, one of our newer first graders, continued to lob the Bulbasaur plushie back and forth with Mr Chris. “I’m the only kid here!” he exclaimed enthusiastically. “I’m so lucky today!” He kept saying that: as he and Chris played catch; as he helped us clean up; as we huddled around the couches for a game of Break the Ice. “I’m here so late today! I’m so lucky, right, Ms Rachels?” Every time he said it, I remembered how my clothes were still soaked from walking a total mile to and from school with two trips of kids. I remembered how one of my arms was so much wetter than the other, because it's the one that had been holding the hand of a child instead of an umbrella. I kept watching Rodrigo's toothless grin. “So are we,” I always answered.
Eventually his dad came, and I trailed Chris with a Christian magazine from the mail, making fun of certain titles and expressing interest in others. Dion was there, too, singing softly to himself near the piano when he wasn’t with us. Outside, the mechanical whir of a water machine reminded us of teasing Jorge, cleaning in the rain. I pulled open the fridge door and prepared dinner for me and Luke: vegetarian baked zita, made just for me and Lindsay at the youth group fundraiser last Friday. All of us left were laughing. It’d been a long, wet, dark day outside, and we were sarcastic but pretty happy. Pretty content. And I realized how wonderful all of that is.
PS I've now referenced this beautiful song twice in two weeks, so if anyone's interested,
here's a video with lyrics listed.